Hi, I'm James (Health Recovery)
Wow, what a journey...
Back in 2010, I never imagined I’d recover — let alone become a source of hope for others. But the years that followed, though incredibly painful, became the greatest education I could’ve hoped for.
I’ve spent more than a decade searching through the deepest trenches of my mind, trying to understand why I suffered the way I did. And now, over ten years since starting my YouTube channel, I finally feel ready — and compelled — to share everything I’ve learned.
They say it takes 10,000 hours to master a skill. After living and breathing this for over a decade, I finally feel ready to share what I’ve learned — and how it might help you, too.
For years, I felt lost—trapped in a body that seemed to be shutting down...
and a mind overwhelmed by darkness. From a young age, I struggled with chronic fatigue, body dysmorphia, cystic acne, panic attacks, and physical symptoms I couldn’t explain.
As the years passed, these symptoms only worsened. I retreated into isolation, numbed by technology, distractions, and anything that could disconnect me from the pain. I lost my sense of joy. I couldn’t feel anything. Life became a blur.
The Emotional Wound That No One Saw
Behind the illness was trauma too. I lived under the control of a narcissistic parent whose manipulation and gaslighting dismantled my ability to trust myself.
Every feeling, every thought, every instinct—I questioned it. My nervous system was in a constant state of fight-or-flight. I didn’t feel safe in my body or in the world.
By 16, I was confined to my bedroom.
Fibromyalgia. Autoimmune issues. Debilitating fatigue.
My reality was pain, confusion, and total emotional collapse.
🌀 Depersonalisation: When You Don’t Feel Real
At one point in my recovery, I felt so disconnected I didn’t even feel *real*. I didn’t recognise my own voice, my body, or the world around me. It was terrifying — and I didn’t know how to talk about it.
I made this video while still in the thick of it. Since then, it’s been viewed over 40,000 times and has helped thousands of people feel less alone.
💬 What People Said
“This is the scariest thing I’ve ever experienced — and you explained it better than anyone.”
– YouTube commenter
“I thought I was alone… but I’m not.”
– YouTube viewer
“I watch this video every day. It calms me down and makes me feel less crazy.”
– YouTube commenter
The Breaking Point That Changed Everything
When I reached rock bottom, I prayed. I didn’t pray out of faith or tradition—I prayed out of desperation.
I asked for one opportunity to change my life. And I made a vow:
Even in my most broken state, I would give everything I had to healing and share whatever had helped me to the world.
A few weeks later, the space opened.
And I kept my promise.
I know what it’s like to feel hopeless, to try every treatment and still feel stuck. But over the years, I discovered that true healing doesn’t come from just managing symptoms — it comes from understanding the body, the mind, and the nervous system as a whole.
Now, I help others find that same understanding — and begin to truly heal from the inside out.
Health Recovery Was Born From That Vow
Healing wasn’t magical. It wasn’t linear. It was like dragging myself through a swamp with no map—just a tiny voice inside telling me, keep going.
Over the next 20+ years, I became my own case study. Through trial, error, and a relentless drive to understand what was happening inside me, I built a system for healing that actually helped.
And I began sharing it—first on YouTube. Now, here.
🎥 Watch: The Heart Behind Health Recovery
If you’d rather hear the story in my voice — or you just connect better through video — this short reflection shares the deeper “why” behind Health Recovery and who it’s really for.
- A structured video course based on what actually works
- Free videos that reflect the real, messy journey of recovery
- Tools to reconnect to your body, regulate your nervous system, and rebuild from the inside out
- Private Community with weekly calls through patreon
What I Offer Now
Health Recovery
